i've discovered how emphatically i feel about certain things. either that or i've eaten too much edamame and it's messing with my mind. hahaha.

i hate packing soo much. and i just packed a huge box full of books to the brim, and i realise i can't lift it. at all. arggh! and it's unbelievable how much stuff i've accumulated in a year. i only have three huge boxes. i'm not sure if that's enough. i thought i'd be done packing my kitchen today. but i'm nowhere near done. i did finish my living room though.. :) and my parents are here! and my mum said she'd fold my laundry for me. but that's it.

i'm so broke that i'm this close to begging on the streets.

sometimes, i get lost in my own head and my ideas and how much i want to do, and i feel overwhelmed. lol. how sad is that?

so i was having dinner with lisa yesterday, and halfway through the power went out, so we ended up having a candlelight dinner on valentine's day... it just has to be fate. haha. =p

this is a plug to watch 'he's just not that into you,' i absolutely loved it. and i'm gonna watch confessions of a shopaholic this tuesday :)

and i'm watching mary poppins on broadway this saturday! this is a good week. but the trip is a logistical nightmare at the moment because the bus we wanted to book costs $1000! so they cancelled it coz it's too expensive. so now i've gotta find a way to get 12 people to new york. as a very last resort, i might drive the school shuttle van (but i'm praying not to). urgh.

on another note, bio isnt as hard as i thought it was. yay :D confidence booster! now, to deal with international finance.... :(

long time no update. it has been a crazy sem so far. firstly, i'm taking bio, which i feel, is like taking a whole new language.

and i'm dealing with some stresses in my life that's occupying my free-time thoughts. which pretty much sucks coz that means i have no free time to think about nonsense. i just mull. haha emo nemo. hate this mulling nonsense.

school is kinda sucky, esp coz of my international finance course. i'm honestly thinking of dropping the course. there is way too much stress, and alot of it is self induced. and the more stressed i get, the more i want to shut off and not do any work. it's a lose lose situation.

i am an idiot. i accidentally dropped a course that i need online and now i cant get back in because it was already full. i want to shoot myself. or punch a wall. or stomp around and cry. JUST WHEN I HAD ALL MY COURSES IN ORDER. why am i so careless?! arrrgh.

many people hate inactivity. i thrive on it. haha bumming around? i love it.

i played wii boxing last night, and today my arms and shoulders are aching. and then we played wii bowling and i almost hit a great dane. it yelped, and then i had to apologize, i'm afraid that i'll give it a complex or something. north carolina has the highest concentration of danes i've seen in my life. hmm. off the top of my head, i have 8 great dane friends here. haha. after being around great danes, all other dogs look puny. huskies, german shepherds, retrievers, labs... they're small. i'm used to being dwarfed by the danes when i sit on the floor now.

the world is small, but not small enough. :(

spring break, summer internship... where to go?!

no more online shopping for me. :( but i did get a victoria secret bikini for $20. and i got a red bikini for $15. now i really wanna go somewhere beachy for spring break. hahaha.

MERRY XMASSSSSSSS!! tis the season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la la! :)

i love xmas. it's my favourite holiday of all time. i will put pics up soon.

so yesterday there was an ice storm in the northeast apparently (i had no idea). today it was ice all over, we practically skated around and i fell once while running between buildings (haha i know, not very smart of me). was in a rush to do room checks for this other friend and leave to go for lunch and catch my flight. anyway, packed my bags this time in about 20 mins. haha.

got to the airport in time, the plane was delayed for half an hour, finally got on the flight (we were going from philly to boston to charlotte) and i was happy and desperate to get to charlotte, and then when everyone was ready, the pilot makes an announcement, saying that the flight is cancelled. O.M.G. i, sad to say, got a little upset coz i was really desperate to get to charlotte.

and i felt kinda bad coz everyone was really pissed coz alot of flights were cancelled due to the crappy weather. and i was no different, (grumpy coz of lack of sleep ahha) and there was this mentally challenged guy who was sitting near me, and i didnt ask him if he needed help and he looked so lost and panicked that everyone was getting off the plane etc. (he had an escort bring him on the plane) he got help in the end from the stewardess, but still, i could have done something. kinda ashamed of myself, that for something so small i totally just lost my cool and was so self absorbed.

well anyway after that we had to go to customer service, where there was a fifty billion mile long line coz so many flights were cancelled. (damn weather all over) after a while waiting in the queue, i regained my zen. hahaha and became happy and not grumpy anymore. so when we finally got to the start of the line, we were cheerful and friendly. and we got direct flights to charlotte! woooohoo! charm gets you places.. literally. hahha.

so we waited, got to charlotte, but my bag got lost in the melee. so hopefully it'll arrive by tmr coz i aint got no clothes. but then again if it doesnt arrive in 5 days, then i'm gonna go on a shopping spreeeee courtesy of the airline. hahaha.

so i'm officially on break now in north carolina. :)

i need sleep now.

goddamnnittt i have to
clear up my house,
fold endless laundry,
do dishes,
vacuum,
clear my rubbish,
do room checks (14 apartments!),
get a new id card coz i lost mine,
pack...

all by noon tmr.

and it's -3 degrees outside now so i really dont wanna go outside.

it seems kinda weird that people would post an advertisement to learn chinese... in chinese. haha

i dont like that i hear the beating of my heart in my ears right now.

as i'm studying my philo for my exam tmr...
let me explain why i'm doing so badly in philosophy.


THIS WAS THE SUMMARY OF THE ARGUMENT. how am i supposed to understand that?!

worse choice ever doing this course. totally ruined philosophy for me.

ridiculously sleepy. i dont know how people pull all-nighters. i pulled a "half" all-nighter, and slept four hours.. and i was grumpy since like 1pm. and tonight i actually might have to pull a real all-nighter, coz it's philo tmr, and in my teacher's words... it's a 'challenging' paper. the mid term wasnt challenging to him and approx 3/4 of the class failed. exams suck.

what's brightened my week so far are my silly webcam sessions with my sisters. haha. love it.